Pacifiers Actually Work!

Newborn babies are cute. I appreciate the fact that I'm able to make them laugh. You see, I hate kids. Well, I used to, at least. But since that sucker popped out of his mother, I've been so attracted to him...it might be that he smells nice, or it might be that I haven't held a baby in a long time. Or it might just be the fact that I'm able to soothe him when nobody else can.

I'd upload a picture of him, but I've got too much going on right now and I doubt my laptop could handle it. Oh. LAPTOP. It's been ten months now, but I haven't even brought it to school once. Aiyah, silly parents with their silly thoughts that I'd mutilate my own precious technology. Yeah, that digital camera that they bought (an unnecessary 10.1 megapixels) is MINE NAO.

Right. So in about six days, I'll be heading out to Bangaldesh. It's been eleven years since I've seen my cousins and my grandmother. I guess I am glad that I'll be able to talk to them after so long, since Facebook can never imitate real life. I guess I'm just a bit afraid, though. I mean, what if they don't like me? What if I'm too American for them? They haven't seen me since I was a skinny little toddler, and now I'm a self-conscious freak of nature that has little to no-self confidence. Oh, right, I'm "tripolar," too. Adding on the fact that my Bengali is like their English...uh oh. What if they don't understand me?

I guess I'll have to overcome my fears if I want to have a good time. I'm still upset that I missed out volunteer work at Mount Sinai. I mean, I would have taken two long months at Queens Hospital! Or a lab. I'm pretty sure someone could have fixed me up with some lab. *Sighs.* Next summer, I guess. For now, I'm stuck with Central Library. It's not bad. Besides, I'll be working in the Business, Science and Technology section. Yay. ^_^

Right. So I've got six days left with the books I've borrowed. I guess I should at least finish reading Feynman. Perhaps I can finish a couple of the chem books I've got...I'm reading about six or seven books simultaneously. That's not exactly the smartest thing to do, is it? =/

Oh, and I'm researching olestra. Hopefully a good science fair project will come of it!

I'll update at least once more before I leave. A very grateful shout out to my two followers: THANK YOU!